Saturday, November 17, 2007

Stressed

I am giving a talk on Sunday. This was supposed to be the easiest talk of my life because 1. it only has to be 10 minutes long, and 2. it's on tithing, which is something I actually know and have a testimony about and have lots of personal experiences that I could share.

So what in the world is wrong with me? I have been at my desk off and on for the last 4 hours tonight, and that's not including the time I took to take notes last night from various sources. I finally have something put together that HOPEFULLY is 10 minutes long and HOPEFULLY is what the bishopric was aiming for, but I still don't feel completely at peace about it. Yes, I have prayed about what I should say and which direction my talk should go. Multiple times. But I'm gettin' NOTHING. Usually I struggle a little at the beginning and then once I get over that initial hump the rest just sort of flows. Not this time. I'm wondering if this is the stupor of thought that you're supposed to get when you're not making the right decision, or if this is Heavenly Father keeping me on pins and needles until that last possible moment when I think that he's really not going to help me this time, and then at the latest possible moment when I've almost given up hope he comes through and I get some great inspiration. Hopefully it's the latter. PLEASE be the latter.

5 comments:

meleah said...

Sheyenne, I wanted to let you know that you did a really good job on your talk. You said some things that I feel like I really needed hear again.

Robin said...

I have to say that I, too, enjoyed your talk and that you did a great job. I actually did get to hear the whole thing without having to make trips to the foyer with naughty kids. :)

Kristi said...

Hey! I wasn't at church yesterday (sick), but Blaine came home and mentioned what a great job you did and then shared some of the stories that you shared. So you did excellent! I hate speaking, seriously. Wish I could have been there to hear it!

Sheyenne said...

Thanks everyone. I got some nice compliments but I always wonder if people really mean it, or they're just trying to be nice. Kristi, if your husband actually even remembered what I talked about, thats a good sign! Again, thanks.

Jules said...

I agree! You did do a super job!!! (Even without 9 minutes of silence! lol) Seriously though it was good. Seth even listened! And in no way am I nice enough to say stuff like that when I don't mean it. No way.